Three Things Thursday

1.   We received a lot of plants and flowers at the funeral last week.  The flowers are beginning to look a little sad, but so far I haven’t killed any of the plants.  It’s a modern-day miracle.

2.   I’ve proven to  myself a couple of times that I’m unable to quit the blog, and since I’m gonna stick around I need to make some changes.  I’d like to rename it to something more personified and maybe migrate it to WordPress, but that all seems like a gigantic pain in the ass.  But you know what else is a pain in the ass?  It’s latest thing is telling me I’m not following any blogs.  It does it almost every day, but I can refresh the page over and over and finally it will pull my blog roll up.

3.   I finally found a shirt for RnR St. Louis next month!  I’ve got several Cardinals t-shirts, but they’re all cotton.  You wouldn’t think it would be this hard to find a ladies Cardinals tech shirt, but it was!  All I could find were men’s until I found this one on

Tuesday Tidbits

  • Our TV is now dotless.  They fixed it last Thursday when we were up to 27 dots.  MAN, that was annoying!
  • I don’t like the fact that my nieces and nephews are growing up.  At the family BBQ on Sunday, it was weird that my nephew (the one that just got married) and his girlfriend (now wife) weren’t there.  They’re off being all grown up at their new home in Ohio.  And it was the last holiday my neice will be home for before leaving for the Air Force next month.  😦  The 11-year-old is all that’s left.  😦
  • I need a haircut.
  • I haven’t been seeing much of D lately.  He works all day then works on the truck in the evenings.  Not much longer now though! 
  • My dogs were cracking me up last night.  Some of the neighbors were setting off fireworks.  My dogs aren’t scared of things like thunder or fireworks, but they will occasionally bark at strange noises.  They would hear the pops and go running down the hall in a barking fit, and D and I would just sit there watching TV.  They would come running back to us and look at us and you could just SEE them thinking, “DO YOU NOT HEAR THAT?!?!”  It was hilarious.  Until I was trying to go to sleep.
  • It’s been a long day.  I feel a nap coming on, then it’s to the track I go!

There’s Nothing Wrong with Change if it’s in the Right Direction

I’ve been reflecting a lot lately. My husband and I were talking about how far we’ve come one night a couple of weeks ago after I found out about my job, and then my bloggy friend Amy posted about how everything changes recently. Seems like it’s on everyone’s mind these days. Is it the milestone birthday I and a lot of my friends have had/will be having this year? Is it the new decade? I don’t know, but change is definitely in the air.

It’s amazing, really. Everyone likes to think they have their lives all mapped out and they think they know where they will be a few years down the road. But SURPRISE! They don’t have a clue. I don’t have a clue. You don’t have a clue. NO ONE has a clue. When I think about how drastically my life has changed over the last 5 to 6 years, it’s actually kind of scary. Is it possible that it could continue its unpredictable pattern? Could my life be as different 5 years from now as it was 5 years ago? I hope not. I feel like I’m where I’m really supposed to be, and I feel extremely blessed to be here.

It was 2004 when my life path took an unexpected turn. My grandmother passed away in January of that year. That in itself was devastating. Then in March my ex-husband left me. He decided marriage wasn’t for him. Turns out it interfered too much with HIS life plan of being a bar-hopping, alcoholic, broke-ass loser. At the time, I was a full-time student and only worked part-time. Obviously I couldn’t afford to keep the house. Had to sell it. Then in July my best friend and sanity-keeper moved to Germany with her new husband. Not long after that, my employer decided she couldn’t afford to keep me anymore. In the span of a few months, I lost my grandmother, my husband, my home, my best friend, and my job. And a lot of myself. Somewhere in all that–and I can’t be sure exactly where–I lost myself too. It all kinda messed with my head, ya know? But after a couple of years of rebellion and bad decisions, I finally got myself back together and came out of it all a much stronger person with a better perspective on everything.

And my husband’s story is not any prettier, but I won’t go into all his personal details. If he wants the world to know all his shiz he can start his OWN blog!

Long story short, we found each other. I am now with the love of my life, a man who loves me, appreciates me, and supports me in everything I do, we are financially stable, and I love my job. Since 2004, I’ve gone from mediocrity to rock bottom to being on top of the world. While it hasn’t always been pleasant, it was worth every heartache to get to where I am now. Change is scary and difficult, but if you keep your head in the game the end result can be what you make of it. Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anybody can start today and make a new ending.