Maybe Next Year

In approximately half an hour, lots of people will be sitting at their computers registering for the Marine Corps Marathon.

After much arguing amongst the voices in my head, I will not be one of them.

I’m so disappointed in myself for not being any further along than I am. I’ve been thinking about it for a while, and I told myself that I would make the decision based on how I was doing when registration opened. Well, it’s opening today, and it’s just completely out of the question. It was 90 degrees here yesterday, and I STRUGGLED to get through five measley miles. It was better than last week, but still not good. The marathon is in October, so that would mean that I would be doing long runs in August and September–when 90 is considered “warm”. I just really and truly don’t believe I can hack it.

And I have to wonder if I ever will be able to. I’ve said all along that trying to train myself to be a runner is like trying to train my cat to be a dog.

What do you guys honestly think? I know lots of you have been very encouraging with all your “If I can, you can!” talk, and I really appreciate that. But I still wonder if that’s really true. If we’re all different on the outside, isn’t the same true for our muscles and hearts and lungs? Some people are predisposed to be awesome runners. I’m not that lucky. I may WANT to be a runner but I’m not. And training and will power can only change so much. I may WANT green eyes instead of blue, too, but I can’t will that to change either.

9 thoughts on “Maybe Next Year

  1. Aw, Pam. Listen to me…I see 6 races listed over there that you've completed. Obviously you're a runner. You're running…you're having good days and crappy days…you're a runner.

    Maybe you're not a runner who likes the heat…that's okay.

    Maybe you're not a marathon kind of girl…that's okay, too.

    Maybe you're not the fastest girl in your neighborhood…so what.

    But you ARE a runner.

    Now if you hate it, that's okay…go find a hobby you love. No sense spending your time doing something you can't stand…but if you like it, hang in there.


  2. I think that you should sign up, nothing helps motivate you like a race on the training horizon. I understand the heat/humidity, as I'm from Indiana originally. Can you run early morning or later evening to beat it? Thinking of you and keep your head up!


  3. Hells bells, run a marathon when/if you WANT to. One can only do what one's mind says so anyway. Until then, you bet you're a don't need any race to tell you that. Sign up for the Phoenix Rock 'n Roll 1/2 in January so you can train when its cool down there and Jessie-Pants and I'll “run” with you.


  4. You are a runner!! When I signed up for the MCM, I was only running 7-8 miles for my long runs, so you're running more than I was! I was not the fastest, I was not the slowest, but I finished the MCM, that is all I wanted to do. My training got me across that finish line, I never doubted myself during the marathon, although I did doubt myself sometimes during my training. There are good days, and there are not so good days. No worries, you'll finish one, maybe the MCM just wasn't in the cards this year. I'm thinking Vegas might be the one!!


  5. Hi Pam,
    That is a tough one. I am sort of fighting the same inner battles with myself. The Chicago marathon is coming up in October and there may be a spot for me on a charity team. Part of me is terrified and the other part excited as hell!! I guess we could both do it and run for fun:) I don't need to worry about a time and just enjoy the fact that I am actually participating in it!! What do you think? Does it sound better if there is no pressure?


  6. You shouldn't be so down on yourself!!!

    First off – 5 miles is not measly… that's a very respectable distance!!! I think you need to re-allign your expectations…

    As for the marathon, maybe wait a while, get a few more half-marathons under your belt and then re-evaluate… I'm pretty much convinced that you could hack a marathon, but it is a time and training commitment so you have to “want” it… If you want some inspiration I suggest you watch “Spirit of the Marathon”… Nothing against the people in the movie I would definitely catergorize a lot of them into the “if they could do it… I could do it” bin.


  7. Blah, sounds like you are having a shitty day. Isn't it supposed to be warm there? Put the top down on the car (or t-tops off) and go for a drive, that'd put me in a good mood.

    If it were me, I'd lay out a training plan between now and then. 7 months is a running eternity – most plans only go 18 weeks out. plan each long run weekend and approximately each mid week run (those are the tough ones). If you look at the schedule and think that it is doable, sign up. If you get crazy overwhelmed then hold off. This is what I used for my first 3 marathons:

    Got me across the finsh line! 🙂


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